Together, through love:

We will find peace.

Hatred and obstinacy is a big feeling. It envelopes and commandeers our minds and our personas without our knowledge. I should know- it has done to me the very same.

But in those darkest moments we cannot give sway to our nightmares, our loss and anger. We must hold fast to creativity and benevolence; one and all. This is the only way to bring about true equality, freedom without bloodshed.

”You know that it is written to love thy neighbor as thyself, but nay, I say verily unto you: love even thy enemy as thyself.”

I hope you enjoy my music.

So I just realized how to find my old posts here. And boy, do I wish I hadn't. I mean, I guess it could be worse. But I found some comments I made while drunk last year on a post about fast food, of all things.

What a stupid thing to do to another person. What a stupid way to wreck a public image.

I just wanted to say I'm sorry, Newgrounds. And I'm sorry to anybody on this site that I've been rude or mean to over the years.

You guys are awesome and you deserve better from me. I want to assure you that that was a side of me that is gone now. I'm currently almost 7 months sober- I guess I just didn't realize that Newgrounds.com was on my amends list until now.

Is there anything I can do to make it up to you? How can I make this right? I truly am so very sorry, and I feel helpless right now. Completely unable to fix it.

Welcome to my page, everybody.

This is a sacred place to me. A place where I could share my music. A place where I could be myself.

I’ve always aspired to be somebody others could look up to, but as life came at me I know I didn’t do a great job at that. I’m trying harder than ever now, though. Not just for myself, but for you all. I want to make you proud to know me, proud to be my friend.

I am about 6.5 months sober and going strong. I’m surprised to find that music hasn’t left me in my sobriety, and I want to encourage others that might be struggling the same way not to give up.

You’re not alone. Things will get better. But I know your pain. I’ve felt it. And I put it into my music here.

I hope you all enjoy it. Much love,

DJDj

Here’s my art and stuff.

Whats up, fam?

Wow, time really flies. Feels like just yesterday that I typed the post before this one.

This is just to let people that follow me know I'm A-okay! I haven't contracted any virus and I haven't fallen into any abandoned wells. I'm just about 5 months sober and the future is looking bright!

I want to thank you all for following me through this journey. It's sure been a long one, and I see lots of names on my feed all the time that feel more like family than just internet entities. I love seeing you guys still creating, still listening, still living.

Stay strong

You're not alone

This is my last apology. I have been spiraling out of control for years now. My alcoholism and my poor judgement have cost me many things- not the least of which is my peace of mind.

Something that ranks high up there is my friendship with an abrasive but caring friend. Rusta. People on this site are probably just about sick of hearing me apologize over and over- but I keep messing up over and over.

But no more.

I have finally admitted that I am powerless to the effects of alcohol, my life has become unmanageable. I’ve joined AA, and am celebrating the end of my 5th day successfully sober. I plan to stay this way the rest of my life.

Over the years, I have insulted others and embarrassed myself. I have been a fool and wasted countless opportunities- but no more. The next time I work on music, it will be to actually do so professionally, fully sober, and with the intention of inspiring others to live life the same way.

Rusta, you’re the first I want to apologize to. You’ve seen me come back and go out into that endless sea of drunkenness so many times. You’ve forgiven me far more times than I’ve deserved, but you always came back. Even this most recent time, you gave me another undeserved chance, which I squandered.

Now I’m asking for one more, undeserved chance. But this time, it shall not be squandered. I have found my place. I have hit rock bottom, and realized the truth. I am an alcoholic- and I am so very legitimately sorry for how I’ve behaved.

~DJDj

So glad you could make it.

Here is an amalgamation of my life’s work in art. It isn’t much, and you don’t get to see any of the dumb movies/videos I made with my friends, but I put my heart into it.

for those that didn’t know me, this will introduce you to me. To those that have known me, this will help you know me better.

PS-

one video of me you could find: “Video to Johnathon” is on my old decrepit YouTube profile Shadow224477. It’s a strange attempt at improv comedy from when I was 15.

have a nice day

My life is become death.

Lol. Jk. Only in the sense that the loss of the old brings in the new.

But still. It's a thing.

I keep learning lessons. Important lessons about who people are/can be, what they mean to society at large and what things really matter the most in life. The happiness, health and development of my daughters is #1, of course- but also the absolute importance of love, patience, and understanding. I've been trying to learn these lessons well and apply them to my music.

I hope you've noticed, and I hope you enjoy!

I feel I have become nothing and nobody. My endeavors have become futile, my works have become irrelevant, and my self has become distraught. I am nothing. We are nothing. I feel it fully and I wonder if it will ever go away.

Hey, guys!

It’s SO good to be back. Let’s dive right in and I’ll give you the update/lowdown on what’s been going on with me.

as I’ve mentioned previously, I’m constrained to writing and producing music via mobile device. That had been a curse, but I’ve been getting steadily better at it.

Recently I got an iPhone 6, which has allowed me to move into even more complex mobile production via GarageBand mobile. I absolutely love it.

I had been going through a rough patch dealing with some issues... but I’m doing much better now. During that time I wrote much music that didn’t get released for one reason or another, but upon my recent victory I’ve gained the confidence to share what I have deemed complete.

Many of you may have noticed the massive influx of 2019 music- this post is your explanation. I’ve been dabbling around quite a bit with many different styles in search of my niche, so you’ll find that most of the tracks uploaded differ from each other.

If you’re looking for a rock experience, I’d check out “[Don’t] Need You”. If you’re into funk or were looking for new rap, try “Boogie Nights”. “Trinity”, “Mechanical Sunrise” and “Blazé Battle” are all instrumentals I’ve composed. The other one, I’ll let you find the title on its own, was just a track I wrote to make a girl I like laugh.

It’s SO good to be posting here again. I hope you all enjoy what I’ve created.

~DJDj